I’d fess up about it. You were acting irrationally, and it’s going to be better to hear the confession from you, and not learning about this because somebody on IG reached out to him. Because it was a livestream, you can’t really hide it anyways, there’s receipts.
This is honestly the sort of stuff that therapy is really good for, but I know therapy can be inaccessible, so no hate if it’s not something you can do.
A’ight, girl to girl advice here. I think you’re so afraid that your partner is going to turn into a replica of your ex that you’re willing to nuke the relationship first.
What you’ve said in your post doesn’t really have much to do with your bf. Your ex would compare you to other girls, but has your current bf done that? Your dad would fight with you instead of talking, but does your bf do that?
I just feel like I give so much of myself and my happiness, even faking it all the time, to not feel it in return.
Stop faking it. Worst-case scenerio, people assume you’re acting a certain way to manipulate them, and that’s not really wrong. They can’t read minds, so they don’t know you’re hiding insecurity, they just know you’re hiding something.
You also can’t give out fake and expect genuine in return. I’d be willing to bet that some of the friction you’re feeling is from people trying to fake it back. If you want to trust a partner that trusts you, you can’t have fake getting in the way.
I honestly don’t understand why people buy games before the first few patches are released. It feels like paying to be a beta tester.
When has art ever been objective?