I thought that was a lie

Disclaimer: I took a lot of physics, and computer engineering during my undergrad but Jack and shit about alchemy

I was gonna say I never had anything glow in the dark that last very long.

Maybe a T-shirt and a strange stress ball like thing

You know I really don’t know it’s been awhile, and probably will be a while yet.

Yeah the diagnosis was POTS way back when. And the treatment is Gatorade and potato chips and small doses of beta blockers to limit the heart rate.

I guess I didn’t think that it would affect everything related to the autonomic system. Yay, even more surprises.

Thanks for the words of encouragement.

It really wouldn’t surprise me if the autonomic dysfunction was a partial cause of it. I still find it has surprises in store for me. I can exercise and intensely, but only in the right environment. Humidity has to be right, fully hydrated, heat has to be right, my heart rate has to be monitored, otherwise my blood pressure will plummet and the rest of my body does too.

When I was a kid, i was always almost last place in phyed running. Id faint at baseball, basketball, carrying heavy things. Eventually a cardiologist said “yo wait a minute” and did a whole series of tests and found that I sweat abnormally, my body doesn’t link heart rate and blood pressure correctly, and there’s something up with how my digestive system responds to food.

It shares similarities with several neuropathies, but I’m not diabetic, and I didn’t have any illnesses as a kid that would cause it that we know of. It’s also almost identical to Long-COVID syndrome, so I was kind of super happy that appeared, and hoped that I might get some answers.

That’s the weirdest thing in the world to me.

How do you not prioritize your partners enjoyment. It’s like the fun part. Like picking a lock, sure the reward is what is on the other side of the lock, but the process of getting the lock open is so much fun along the way

Nerve density, circumcision status, age, masturbation habits, mental status, attraction, timing of recent ejaculation, general neurological state, nerve conductivity.

So I don’t know about the death grip thing. Maybe when I was really young.

My sensitivity seems fine to me. Uncircumcised, 30s, neurological state and nerve conductivity. Also mental state… Fascinating.

I do have an autonomic dysfunction. And I do have nerve conductivity issues, but I couldn’t finish the tests it was too painful.

But mental state. That… Makes a lot of sense. Ever since my ex-wifes affair, i can’t even enjoy porn. Low key terrified if I ever meet someone I won’t be able to enjoy her.

I dont

Edit: usually bedtime

Eh, it’s too specific imo for a good pasta.

Yeah, it’s definitely gotta be my meds prolonging it then, because if the max was 44.1 minutes and it’s not uncommon for me to go 45-60 that’s definitely an outlier.

That explains why my ex complained about me lasting so long. Like legitimately complained.

It’s probably the medicines I’ve taken since I was a teenager then. If 5 minutes is a marathon, 45-60 must be some cruel form of torture.

I got that part, but there is no way many guys last under 5 minutes right? That’s the joke itself

Ok so where does this joke come from?

Like yeah I haven’t gotten laid in a couple of years, but it’s always been a book an appointment thing for me.

So is the joke guys really take so long and women get bored and sore with it? Like an “opposite” thing? Like “when you wanna make a sex tape, please let it be a Tik tok?”

So, I definitely do a job.

They call me PO. I’m hired as a Software Engineer. My manager says I’m a Tech Lead for the “Product Operating Model.” My principal SWE expects me to contribute to developmenf. My product manager expects me to be an expert on what we’re making. The development team I was given has a strict adherance to Scrum. They call me a product owner.

The scrum guide expects me to contribute only in the product owner roles. That means I get to write up the backlog! But I also have to do code reviews. And I advocate for the business. I do not get to participate in development (conflict 1). I have so many meetings I dont know who is the SMEs on the product im building (conflict 2).

I looked up my job description one day. And it is so vague I can’t argue it.

I refuse to go on a track for more promotions. This job is way too stressful because because there’s a lot of things I can do, I just can’t.

So, in my professional opinion?

Lying on your Resume might get you fired. But it also might make no lick of difference

DELIRIUM !!! WOOO

I do not recommend experiencing it.

I do recommend reading on it, so people who are curious can change that opinion themselves.

If mining weren’t so dangerous, I kinda see myself doing it. Like if I didn’t have to worry about trapped gases, or tunnel collapses, or explosives, or dust-caused disease, or generally high cancer rates, it could be a fun thing.

You basically get to dig holes for a living. How fucking sweet is that?

Man I’ll tell you, it certainly doesn’t feel like being an immortal wizard with a cool sword.

It feels like being the foot soldier at the front of the spear line as Orcs are charging at you.

And the formation is a triangle, and your the tip.

And I would trust the devs behind me if I had time between everyone I have to talk to .

I fucking literally went into this career to limit the amount of talking I have to do to people. $150k isn’t worth this level of stress for the remainder of my career.

Meh. I joke. Not like I can exactly legally or morally move me and my son there without my ex in tow.

A “night of the long knives” is inevitable. He pulled something similar the first admin, just without killing anyone, sacking those he saw obstructing him.

For good reason.