What is the thought in your head that makes your eyes wide open and bloodshot? The thought that constantly echoes in your head, but you cannot shake off.
Nothing. I sleep well.
We are rapidly depleting our healthy soil due mainly to destructive factory farming techniques used across the world.
Just one inch of healthy soil takes centuries to form from the slow breakdown of organic matter by a whole host of micro-ecosystems.
The desertification of massive swaths of our planet continues largely unabated.
Unemployment and loneliness.
Lost my job 3 months ago, trying to find a tech job gets harder everyday. Found a small wordpress site gig for $500.
The support structures I thought I had didn’t exist, so I spend sleepless nights thinking about how I got here.
Mostly economic/health anxiety. I live in a country with no safety nets and barely make a living. I already have health issues so I’m afraid if things get worse I won’t be able to afford to get healthcare. But I tried lately to have a healthier lifestyle and it’s helping a bit with the anxiety
I had a secure, well paying job in my mid 20s with a very well known company that I was frankly lucky to get given my clear inexperience. I voluntarily left a year or so in. I’m now in my late 30s and work ever since I left has been temporary contracts that lasted no more than a year, and each one was more dreadful than the last.
The money problems and the thoughts of where I could be had I never left that job would be completely non-existent… the life I wish to build for myself and my family, the support I could’ve easily provided my loved ones, the moves I could’ve made to no longer be stuck on the sell your labor for bs pay wheel, all circle my brain at night in bed.
And with the current state of the economy, AI in my industry, the younger generation entering the work force with the latest knowledge, tools, methodology, etc… it’s harder and harder to envision my trajectory getting back to the heights I once had.
I remind myself that I was in my infancy when it came to my professional career with no perspective on the industry (completely diff major in college). I did not have a mentor or direction. And the concept of the private/public sector in relation to job security never dawned on me until much later (I assumed that once you were hired as a contractor, you would eventually be brought on full-time and begin your career with that company… nope ha)
… I remind myself of these things and at times it helps quiet my soul… but at night lying in bed, the most financially stressed I’ve possibly ever been, that reminder does little.
Despite how depressing this all sounds, there’s still a glimmer of hope and optimism left in me. I’m quite grateful for the support I have currently which enables me to plot a change in course starting this coming new year. Fingers crossed 🤞🏾
Wishing everyone well in this thread. So long as we have breath, we have purpose.
The thought that I’m gonna die one day
Binette, that is in no way a certainty
How is it not?
Binette, for the first time in history, our civilization has all the tools necessary to discover a cure for aging. It’s just that this whole idea is frowned upon by so many people because humans having expiration dates is considered “normal”, and therefore good, by the society.
I’m following the research and am 90% certain that there will be a breakthrough in the next decade.
There are so many extraordinarily hard problems that need to be solved that I worry you are setting yourself up with false hope.
bitcrafter, for example? Most of those problems would be societal, imo. A lot will need to change in our society once aging is cured. But in the end, I believe, we’ll end up as a better civilization. For one thing, human life will be much more valued and respected.
Regarding research, biology is unique in that it requires a certain level of progress in many other fields of science to itself make progress. For example, you can’t discover cells unless microscope has been invented. Right now we’re finally in position to not be held back by our tools. We already do some badass things — for example, those mRNA covid vaccines are an engineering marvel.
Everything is on fire. Bugs are dying, teflon - and chemicals are everywhere, micro plastics, warming oceans, invasive species, west Nile virus, ohh cancer that I might be actually developing right now, the emptiness of existence, the inability to change big things, that at the end it won’t matter. Nobody cares. Me doing my part doesn’t matter. Immeasurable human stupidity, global upcoming financial crisis.
These are of the top of my head. But I do know how to keep my head in the sand, so at least I can sleep well enough.Its fine
My therapist suggestion was to: bear witness.
That maybe our role is just to watch it burn, to acknowledge it is on fire.
So it’s fine :) at least I don’t have kids to worry about.This fits well with my philosophy: I tolerate continued existence out of a morbid sense of curiosity.
This is honestly what’s been keeping me going. Maintaining a sense of curiosity about what kind of whacky shit is gonna happen next.
A day at a time , take care .
How my father is able to either justify/excuse or even blatantly support any of these illegal acts the American joke of a President is committing.
My son is getting older every day. Soon I won’t have to read him bedtime stories any more and he won’t want to cuddle all the time.
He will want and need you in a thousand new ways, every moment of your life. You just have to always lightly interact, be available, and not be judgmental.
I can confirm. I’m in my 20s and I don’t feel like I need my parents any less than 10 years ago. Maybe I don’t need them to feed me or buy me clothes and stuff like that, but they are essential
Oh this hits right in the feels. I always try to remind myself that this is his childhood and it will leave an impression for the rest of his life. Then i start worrying about not doing enough etc and anxiety ensues
A brain that needs to be tricked into falling asleep half the time
Usually it’s not even negative thoughts or anything like that, it’s just busy problem solving
It’s a purgatory of sorts.
- Can’t sleep because I can’t stop thinking.
- Been awake so long: now I’m hungry
- Have a snack, return to bed.
- Now I need to go to the bathroom.
- Return to step one.
The kittens
The constant underlying risk of global thermonuclear holocaust.
